Cheating and Lying...

I just hate u..Liar..!!!!

Honesty and trust are THE most important things in any relationship. If you can't trust your partner, if you cannot rely on your partner, then you will always be divided and apart from the one person who should be standing beside you against the world.


When you cheat you could tell her so that you can have an open relationship or you could lie about everything...but u decide not to tell her..

if the person you cheated on finds out then they are hurt.and if you really feel bad about cheating then you are hurt each and everyday.my advice...dont tell!it will only make things worse..just dont do it again!

Once upon a time, we swore not to say goodbye
Something got a hold of us and we changed
And then you sat alone in pride
And I sat at home and cried
How'd our fairytale just end up this way

We went round for round til' we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring, not making a sound
And if that's a metaphor of you and I
Why is it so hard to say goodbye

I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like i do
Still can't shake you off  Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through
These emotional changes
Seems like such a lost 'cause
I can't wait to face you,
break you down so low
there's no place left to go

I can't wait to hate you

this was a love phenomenon no one could explain
And i wish I could press reset and feel that feeling again
I sit and press rewind
And watch us every night
Wanna pause it but I can't make it stay 

We went round for round til' we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring not making a sound
And if that's a metaphor of you and I 
Why is it so hard to say goodbye why's it so hard

No need to call my phone cause I changed my number today
Matter fact I think I'm moving away 
Sorry the frustration's got me feeling a way
And I just keep having one last thing to say

And I just wanna hold you,
Touch you, feel you, be near you
I'm tired of tryin' to fake through
But there's nothing I can do
Boy I can't wait to hate you

Miss Him Lots.!!!

I have always asked my self the same question ....
is love addiction?..or the power of ur love make u act like addict
..like u can't get enough of ur beloved???

when u love someone..u feel alive...u enjoy every moment with him.. u smile..u r quite with this peaceful moments...u laugh ..u go nuts
u just get use to that happiness..which ur beloved brings to ur life
and that joy...run thro ur blood..like drug..which sedate every pain..and erase
all bad memories..and suddenly..u start to love ur life
and u see the world with different vision..like its first time u r
really living in this world
u get use to their presence..he laugh.... his voice..
u got caught up with all that magic that love brings

And one day...
U got to accept that he won't be able to meet u for a few days probably ..but u try to fake smile..and try to say its ok i understand..but ur heart hurt cos u know u can't stand all this time without him...u just can't!!
u feel like an addict..in the worst phase of the withdrawal symptoms
it hurt too much to miss him..it hurt too much that u can't do anything abt it!!
u have to wait...just wait..but u can't!!!!
days r passing by so slowly..and u feel like u already miss him right now...so what abt one day or two?!!
not to mention ten days!!!!!it's killing me..i swear..!!
is that addiction?...can love become an addiction?
after thinking..abt it..i guess yea..i love him so much and i am addict to his love
i am trying to not be clingy..or sound needy...so i faked smile..saying yea i understand baby..i ll miss u thou
but he don't know abt those..nights when i am looking to his pic..holding it...and kiss it
i know maybe someone ll say..hey its just 30 minute from your house..well..yea..maybe its few minute..in the ordinary life..but when u love someone..like really love him.. but i am happy now..cos its just a few minute..and all this ll change....yaayyyyyyyyy
i miss his laugh so much..i miss all the times when we r together..i miss him so much......

Lots of Love

Love or Lust? How to know..??

At one time someone would probably say to you ” I love you with all my heart…”, and then suddenly you start to see stars and little hearts floating just at the side of your head, giving you this bizarre feeling that as if you are the most beautiful creature in the middle of the universe… Then you start to combine your names together…Until…wait! you woke up and realised that it is “NOT” really what the person meant? Then you ask yourself…a big  “WHY???????” Wherein, you could have asked, “what could it possibly be?”And of course, no person in his/her right sane would tell you that what they feel is merely “lust” for you…whether they know it or not. So how can you tell?

One very similar feeling to love is lust. Lust is a very powerful, very intense feeling of physical attraction toward another person. Lust is mainly sexual in nature – the attraction is superficial based on instant chemistry rather than genuine caring. Usually we lust after people we do not know well, people we still feel comfortable fantasizing about. Many adults still confuse intense attraction such as lust to true love.
As it is, lust is not love. Love is based on more than just physical attraction. Attraction is an essential factor but love goes deeper than that. Love is a shared feeling between two people who have a vested interest in one another’s happiness. Love is based on caring, friendship, commitment, and trust.
Love is a feeling that as if you always have a best friend beside you that you can count on and understand you. It is love when you feel that you can be just as yourself in good times and bad times. It is love when you think you can accept each others’ flaws no matter how odd others may think these are. It is love when you can actually forgive each other’s mistakes… These are just but some obvious signs of loving someone. Anything less is lust, deep friendship and attraction.
For some people it may not be that easy to determine love from lust. It may not always be absolute in finding out what makes someone say that what he/she feels is true love, but we can use some signs to know that what you really feel is heading towards love. If you agree with 7 out of 10 statements, chances are that you might be in love.
1. You know, because you have been told by your significant other; your deep feelings are returned in kind.
2. The object of your affection makes you feel special and good about yourself.
3. If/when you feel jealous, it is always fleeting; you are not insecure about your partner most of the time.
4. It feels serene, peaceful, and relaxing when you and your partner are together.
5. When you fight with your partner you usually make up. You both respect and forgive each other’s flaws and mistakes and think that being with each other is more important than pride.
6. You agree that nothing is more important than you both being able to express your true feelings (even if they sometimes cause conflict).
7.Your partner should not ask you to choose between him/her and your loyalties to family and friends; – if you do choose him/her over them you always have a good reason and it is always YOUR decision and your decision alone.
8. Your partner should know and understand that your work is important to you.
9. You are more yourself when with your partner than you are with anybody else.
10. If sex is part of your relationship, it is by mutual desire and agreement without the slightest hint of commitment testing or persuasion.

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Falling In Love

Falling in love and love are two quiet different feeling. Falling in love can be either a flash of emotions or a first step towards love.

Falling in love is a strong instinctive attraction to the person of the other sex. In case it’s mutual and both lovers will work at their relationships one day that feeling can grow into love. Falling in love is crazy, it very physical, it’s when knees are getting weak and temperature rises, love is calm, comfortable and mental.

You have to do nothing to fall in love and often there’s either nothing you can do to stop falling in love. It’s very illogical: you suffer from splashes of emotions, doubts, can’t fully control yourself and it’s all because of a person you usually almost don’t know. When we fall in love nature shows all it’s power on us. Sometimes it even goes against our sense when we understand that we can’t expect nothing good from these relationships that it’s the wrong person but still can do nothing about ourselves.

Falling in love is the call of our sex but the object is instinctually chosen according to our ideals, dreams and etc although we may not realize it. We usually fall in love with the appearance of the person, with the way he/she walks, the way he/she talks. Sometimes we impute to our object of love some illusional, ideal qualities and the more we get to know that that person the less we fall for him or her. That’s when the feeling disappears eve faster than it appeared.

The more two persons get to know each other, the more comfortable they get the less sharp, bright and exciting the feeling gets. Some couples continue their relationships and get married in the end some fall apart. It’s reasonable to say that a second pair of slippers by the bed and one more toothbrush in the bathroom is the end of that crazy falling in love but it also can be the beginning of  something more serious.

Different people fall in love more or less often than other. Some are switching partners enjoying crazy emotions which never turn with them into a real love.
Some may fall in love for a short time while having some permanent partner they love, this can even ruin some stable relationships. Some can claim to be in love with two people at the same time. These are usually two very different people so that one can’t choose which type is better but can neither afford to take both. In the center of love there’s always only one person.

We may call falling in love some kind of a temporary illness both mental and physical and won’t be very wrong. Some will say that it’s destructive, selfish, possessive, blind and give falling in love many other unpleasant definitions. But have those people ever been in love? Because if they have they would know that it differs from any other illness in on very essential way – it can be very pleasant. People nowadays often turn to antidepressants and drugs because it makes them feel better in the first case and makes them high in the second.
Falling in love is the most natural and the least harmless kind of doping. Yes, it’s not mural, it never looks in the future, in fact it has no future but it gives life some spirit of freshness and youthfulness...

Love At First Sight

Do you believe in love at first sight? Scientists study our brain activity and say that it’s quiet possible but everyone is free to believe or not to believe.

Some people claim that it happened to them and it was like you raise your head, meet those eyes and tell yourself “It is He/She!”. Psychologists say that love at first sight depends on our psychological state at the moment. In some case we won’t even notice those charming eyes in another they can make a lasting impression on as. Also they say that it takes about 30 seconds to fall in love or precisely speaking to estimate whether the person is worth to fall in love with. By the way psychologists claim that men fall in love first.

Very many factors act in the situation of falling in love from the first sight. These are our ideals, intuition or “fast logic”, imagination etc. When you fall in love at the first sight you are usually ready and willing to fall in love. Less possibility that it will happen if you are tired, stressed, solving problems in you mind. Of cause the main part in falling in love is given to the appearance, voice, gestures, smell. One person intuitively searches in the other the qualities and the feature to complete him/herself. Of causes beautiful people attract attention the most,  but sometimes it’s wrong to fall in love with them easily because those people are experiencing much attention from the people of the other sex all the time and your delightful reaction may simply have no answers.

But if you suddenly fall in love with quiet unknown person and see that it’s mutual that may mean even that mother-nature has chosen a partner that genetically suits you a lot. In this case it is like “aha, match!” when someone happens to fill up all the necessary categories like “tall, blond, blue-eyed, looks good, has a style and nice manners, likes me”.yuhoooo..!!!

Still the cases when people really had fallen in love from the first sight and lived long and happily after that are rather it. You may dream of a beautiful stranger that waits for you just around the corner but it’s wrong to name every slight sympathy and interest to a person the love at first sight. Maybe you’re just a little tired of everything that surrounds you or trying to fill the emptiness inside, yet it doesn’t mean everyone who looks nice will do. Sometimes it takes patience and time to find out the true nature of your feelings, mind that wonders do happen but not as often as we would like them too. If you suddenly have felt the wings behind you back still try to keep your feet on the ground because if it’s really love at first sight nothing will happen to it but if you’re taking illusions for reality falling back on the ground can be really hurtful.

By the way some theories say that we fall in love not from the first sight but from the first smell. Scientist claim that we pay much attention to what our eyes and ears tell us but on the subconscious level the way the person smells play a very big part in his or her expression on us although we don’t recognize it.

As always there’re as many opinions as many people. Each one has an equal right to exist because whatever the all those scientifical researches find out love still stays a sphere in which no one quiet sure in anything.

As always there’re as many opinions as many people. Each one has an equal right to exist because whatever the all those scientifical researches find out love still stays a sphere in which no one quiet sure in anything...
And me,i hope my dream will come true..!!!

Merry Christmas & Happy New year..

A Peaceful Christmas and 

A happy and prosperous 

New Year to you. May we all

be seven times better off at this 

time next year !May the miracle of Christmas fill your heart with warmth and love. 

Christmas is the time of giving and sharing. 

It is the time of loving and forgiving.

Merry Christmas to Everyone!

As the new year blossoms, may the journey of your life be fragrant with new opportunities, your days be bright with new hopes and your heart be happy with love! Happy New Year! 

Lots Of Love

I love you. I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side.

I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you.

love forever

I Made A Mistake In Letting You Go

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could hold you. I've realized that I've tried to replace you over and over since I made the foolish decision to leave you. But, no one can make me laugh and smile like you do. You are the only one that ever made me so happy.

No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my soul has stolen my heart and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night with guilt in my heart of how I hurt you.

I guess you just don't realize what you have until it's gone. I was so stupid to leave you. I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry and I beg with every ounce of my soul please forgive me!

Love Always

Just Came Back From Birmingham & London

Quick update sebab saya baru jer balik dari Birmingham & London..sgt2 penat..!!biarlah gambar menceritakan segalanya..!!!

On the way to Birmingham motorway to slippery and i have to drive slowly..and salt spreading everywhere..

I Miss my mum & dad..uwaaaaaaaaaaaa..!!!!!nak balikkkk...!!!!!

I dont have any idea because i was so angry now..!!no mood at all..!!!!damn..!!

Reggae Time

Most people are at least somewhat familiar with the music of roots reggae master Bob Marley. However, many of his contemparies are equally talented but not as well known. If you like Bob Marley and would like to discover some similar music, read on!

1. Peter Tosh - 'Legalize It'

Peter Tosh was an original member of The Wailers, Bob Marley's rocksteady and early reggae trio. Legalize It is perhaps Tosh's best-known album, and the title track has become an anthem for those who believe in the legalization of marijuana. Because of this and other drug-related subject matter on the album, this may not appropriate for the whole family, but adult Bob Marley fans will certainly love this one.

2. Bunny Wailer - 'Blackheart Man'

Bunny Wailer was the third member of the original Wailers, which also included Bob Marley and Peter Tosh. Eventually, Bunny Wailer became well-known as a pop dancehall musician, but this album is characteristic of the roots reggae style that Bob Marley made famous. Bunny Wailer is the only member of the original Wailers that is still alive today; he resides in Jamaica.

3. Lee "Scratch" Perry - 'The Upsetter Shop Vol. 1'

Lee "Scratch" Perry was both a musician and a record producer, producing hits for Bob Marley and the Wailers, among others. In his later career, he moved from playing roots reggae to playing dub and dancehall, and these recordings from the mid-1970s show his prowess at combining the two styles...e

So Enjoy..!!!!




Let's Layanzzzz...!!

Me & My love Thing

My Macbook Air Lappy

Akuistic Guitar

Nikon SLR3100

Blackberry 9300

Sony Vaio

Olympus Waterproof Camera

Saya sgt2 suka dgn apa yang saya ada..!!

Lies

Never lie to me, because if i catch you, i will call you on it and i will feel on my anger like two teenagers groping  each other in the backseat of a car.
I abhor being lied to
I would rather you hit me than lie to me.
I have been lied to alot in my life, and i have grown to lot the  it with a passion as a result.
I do not hate many things, but being lied to is one of them, and is  at the top of the list among  personal things (i hate things like abuse of children and women, war and poverty more, but, that is the world issues list. not the personal)
 
      “The naked truth is always better than the best dressed lie”
 Ann Landers
 
I prefer ugly truth over pretty lies, because, eventually the lie is found out, or, in my case,  i sense it in you.
my radar is  excellent. and if i sense it, i tell you "you are lying"
which can bring one of two results.
more lies, or a shameful  or   kinda of laughing admission.
If it is the latter, i am far more apart to forgive on the spot, and tell you not t do it again, explaining i prefer the truth, even if it is brutal.
The truth hurts alot less than the betrayal
 
“A single lie destroys a whole reputation for integrity”
 Baltasar Gracian
 
If you lie, i will always suspect you of lying the rest of our relationship.
I hate that i am that way, but, once you have broken my trust, i know you are capabel of doing it again.
So, i withdraw emotionally.
i put up a wall between us as self preservation.
one lie can cost us the  best in our relationship.
Dont get me wrong i DO forgive. I can be very forgiving, which i did not realize until i was able to forgive my ex for so much. Something i believe suprised him
I did not realize that  i had such a capacity to forgive someone i loved.
 
The liar's punishment is not in the least that he is not believed, but that he cannot believe anyone else.”
 George Bernard Shaw
 
I am known for my veracity by those who know me well.
I can be brutally honest.
My aunt hates it.
because i will tell the truth if its hurtful, and she believes you should lie to  be kind.
All dishonesty, for me, feels dirty, feels wrong and makes me feel so , just  miserable 
 
 “No one can lie, no one can hide anything, when he looks directly into someone's eyes.”
 Paulo Coelho
 
This is so true, except  sometime si have trouble with eye contact in general, i do however, tend to look someone in the eyes if i am speaking truth about something, other than just chithat.
I have gotten alot better wit the eye thing, i look ppl in the eyes alot now.
the thing is,   what makes it hard is there is an emotinal intensity to eye contact.

in the jim butcher dresden files books there is a thing caled a soul gaze, where you can see everything that is inside a person, good or bad.
but tio soulgaze with someone means they can see all that is within you too
which, in the book, is dangerous
Its almost like that.
I look someone in the eyes i sense alot about them, but, at the same time, i am afraid they can sense alot in me, and until i trust a person,  really know them, i dont want them to see me so naked.
I know i  sense  ppl motives and   general state of being because of the spiritul gift of decernment.
It can be a burden to bare this gift, because, sadly, there is far more  bad than good in ppl, dishonesty, betrayal, self motivation, vapidness, lostness. living lies. malice, anger. sometimes evil.
I wish i saw more good, because, seeing so much  mad in ppl, in the world makes me    jaded. makes me suspicious, and makes me closed off emotionally until you can prove you are worthy of it.
To bare that gift tho, you have got to be strong and tough, you have to be able to  bare the weight of it.
BTW, in a nonreligious world view, the gift of descernment would be known as being an empath. They are  pretty much identical,.  Which leads me to believe God bestows spiritual gifts to all, but, its outr choice how we use them. For God or not.
I  feel like, all the painful things i have experienced, were allowed to make me able to bare that gift.
It is the rareist spiritual gift, and i find those who do not have it to some degree, look at you like you have three eyeballs. Or you are crazy.
but is is scriptural, unless you have experienced it, you dont understand it.
most ppl could not bare the emotion of it i dont believe
but the flipside, the positive is this,  you can empathize really well, you feel the emotion of a hurting person and you are able to  comfort and minister to them.
And then there is when you can see good in someone,  light and love and kindness.
Its beautiful.
You can see the love of God living in some ppl,  and it makes you love them instantly
 
The end of an ox is beef, and the end of a lie is grief”
 African Proverb
  “Oh, what lies there are in kisses.” -Heinrich Heine
 
So true!  lies hurt others and hurt you to tell!
So why do it?
pride. fear of hurting ppl? they get hurt anyway and pride, well pride is just denying you are human, flawed and messed up like the rest of us.
which is just  done out of ignorance... it is pointless
 
      “Sex is full of lies. The body tries to tell the truth. But, it's usually too battered with rules to be heard, and bound with pretenses so it can hardly move. We cripple ourselves with lies.”
 Jim Morrison 
 
I included this quote because i like it,.
Aside from pride and money, sex is why ppl lie often
to get it, to cover your past history, used to get somehting you want, used to sustain something in your life....
How sad such a wonderful thing God gave us as this incredible gift and  beautiful pleasure phsyically is used for so much bad.
Sex is  just, gah, even when its bad its still kinda good. lol
and God made us able to experince that pleasure when he made adam and eve.
It WS intended to motivate, it bonds and it produced children.
be fruitful and multiply, i mean, he had to give us a reason to  make with the babies lol
 
We do cripple ourselves with lies.
one lie tends to begat a lie, begats a lie, begats a lie... and so on.
And it is so very hard to keep track of the lies you tell,
you eventually slip and then the people you lie to realize  you  have been lying al along, betraying their trust, and that relationship will never, ever be the same.
the damage  is done,.
if you are like me,
you can forgive, but they can not forget
there is a scar  left inside me that never  quite heals, and you made it  because you just could not be honest.
 
Lastly i leave you with a spoken word from James Marsters
Cheap Wine LiesA Lie Is Like A Cheap Bottle Of Wine From A Cheap Liquor Store
It Dont Cost Much At The Time
But It Burns As It Goes Down
And You Know Your Gonna Pay,
Later You Say,
Now Its OK
But As Hard As You Swallow
You Cant Shake The Taste
The Acid And The After Thaught,
Churning In Your Belly
The Buzz Becomes A Fly In Your Brain
And You Feel Grey The Next Day
And It Leaves You With Nothing But Regrets
Download it yourself to hear

 
I cannot tell you how much i love that.
it is such a beautiful, gritty  metaphor for a  lie.
That James.  he knows what he is talking about  most of the time.
thats why i adore his mind and heart.
Its alot like mine.
For that knowledge, i feel blessed.
 

You think youre going to live your life alone
In darkness and seclusion... yeah, I know
Youve been out there and tried to mix with those animals
And it just left you full of humiliated confusion
So you stagger back home and wait for nothing
But the solitary refinement of your room spits you back onto the streets
And now youre desperate and in need of human contact
And then you meet me and yur whole world changes
Because everything I say is everything youve ever wanted to hear
So you drop all you defenses, Im perfect in every way
cause I make you feel so strong and so powerfull inside
You feel so lucky
But your ego obscures reality that you never bothered to
Wonder why things are going so well
You want to know why?

cause Im a liar, yeah, Im a liar
Ill tear (rip) your mind up, Ill burn your soul
Ill turn you into me, Ill turn you into me
cause Im a liar, a liar, a liar, a liar...

Ill hide behind a smile and understanding eyes
And Ill tell you things that you already know so you can say:
I really identify with you, so much
And all the time that youre needing me is just the time
That Im bleeding you, dont you get it yet?
Ill come to you like an affliction then Ill leave you like an addiction
Youll never forget me... wou wanna know why?

I dont know why I feel the need to lie and cause you so much pain
Maybe its something inside, maybe its something I cant explain
cause all I do is mess you up and lie to you
Im a liar, ooh, Im a liar
But if youll give me another chance I swear Ill never lie to you again
cause now I see the destructive power of a lie,
Theyre stronger than truth
I cat believe I ever hurt you, I swear I will never lie to you again
Please, just give me more chance, Ill never lie to you again, no,
I swear, I will never tell a lie, I will neer tell a lie, no, no
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha! sucker! sucker! sucker!

 

I hate this..!!!lot's of lies..!!