Story Of My Life

Wednesday, 9 March 2011

Randomness

What's up Bloggers..

I am making this post for I am not sure what reason as I don't feel anyone will be able to help much right now.

I think I have had to much time on my hands to think lately. But all of a sudden I feel really lonely and thinking of all the people in my life and which ones truely care and would stick by me through everything I don't think there are any. maybe have a few friend that really care,but where they are..?

So much has happened now and it feels like theres a dead end and there is no point in carrying on. It seems like for a long time now things have got progressively worse and they are going to keep doing so until they have completly beaten me down.

There has usually been some part of me which just wants to smile despite everything and that fears and wants things to go back to how they were, but even this tiny flicker of hope in me is dissapearing and I don't even care anymore. And that frightens me a little which is a good thing I guess because it means I must still have some hope left.

welcome to fall..

Achieved towels, toothpaste and put it to accomplish to the toothbrush and brush my teeth .. .. .. lalalalalala (cewahh, siap nyanyi2 lak tu) .. is ready ..!!! bath, lalalallalal...,soap, falling thud KELEPEK ..!!! ..! uwaaaa ... WTF ..! ambik kau, tu la tegedik2 masa shower on bath..kan dah dapat sakit..!!!

Hope that my bone takde la crack ke apa,just have a bit cut pada tgh2 bum tu..sakit dow..!!!cuak jugak masa jatuh tu,tapi nasib baik patt ada,dia tolong tuamkan sbb dah bengkak sangat..just imagine la,kepala paip yg besi tu boleh patah,kuat giler saya rasa jatuh masa tu..nak nangis cam lawak,tp nk gelak sakit..ahakss..!!bangang punya budak..!!!

arinie & semalam lansung tak boleh nak buat apa sebab not really comfy to sat or lay down on bed,very painful ..

Monday, 7 March 2011

Letter for u dad

Dear dad,

i hope you are doing well.

i apologize for the length of my silence

but, i was lost in our wood's relentless

dense sense where a tree fell.

and, being the only lonely soul

to hear the desperate sound,

i felt it only proper that i hang around

to cover the stumps bare hole.

So dad,

i feel the whispers in the hall

reach inside the mist of my consciousness

like a cool breeze to the native inhabitants

standing near a cascading waterfall

and, being the only lonely soul

inventorying the essential contents

i felt it only proper to become a dissident

deciding what may be sold.

Then dad,

no grievance can i hold

no claim to pain and its rightful heir

there is no home in a room full of despair.

only webs to filter passing souls

and, being the only lonely soul

i offer a candle and a dove

and feel it only proper to create light and love

no grievance should i or could i or would i hold

Dear Dad,

I wish you well, and pray you never be the only lonely soul and i want you to know how much i love you dad

My own move this week

( Tutup Muka Malu ) Ahaksss...!!! baru btau nk biar besawang sket,dah tegedik2 nk update blog,ahakss..!!kau mmg takley idup la takde blog kan..??pirahhh..!!

Well just nak share story psl packing brg2 nk pindah..mak kau ingatkan sket..!!baju jerk dah belambak,tak paham mana datang tah..!!adoiii yaii..!!!( sambil purak2 garu kapla.) ahaksss..

Tengok2..??ni kat luar jer tak tgk lagi dalam bilik..masyaallah..!!

tengok..!!!tengok..!!dalam bilik pun selambak..!!tu tak abis kemas lagi tu..adoiii..

i hate folding clothes & packing this bloody small staff

As most of you know I have decided to move yet again but this time it's back in with same person..yeah..Patt.!!!I am excited for the move but I have come to one conclusion. PACKING IS THE WORST! The one good thing about moving though is that you get to purge alot of stuff if not just for the fact that you don't want to pack it and haul it all with you. I think I have listed more stuff on Craigslist than ever before!

Another bad thing, especially for those of you who know me well, is the disorganization it causes and the stress that goes along with that. I am the type of person that has everything in its place. I hate things just laying around and cluttering up good space. Therefor my place right now is stressing me out! I just started really packing today and here's what it looks like thus far.

Most of you are probably thinking to yourselves, well that's not so bad, but for me it is! I move wekeend and had to start packing today because for the next 3 days I work and cannot pack so the disarray began early. Too early in my opinion because now I have to set eyes on the hazard that is my living room for the next 5 days.

Don't even get me started on the bedroom.......

DAMN BLOODY TIRED..

Saturday, 5 March 2011

P.E.N.G.U.M.U.M.A.N

okay hari ini tanggal 5 March 2011 saya dengan rasa yg tak dapat diungkapkan dengan kata-kata mengisyhtiharkan bahawasanya BLOG INI AKAN DIBIARKAN BERSAWANG sehingga satu masa yang akan ditentukan kemudian. kerana buat masa sekarang tuan blog adalah sangat sibuk sehingga tidak dapat memberi sepenuh komitmen pada blog yg dibina atas dasar suka sama suka. eh?

hahah, bukanlah.

*sambung balik*

hal ini adalah kerana tuan blog sedang sibuk menguruskan sebab nak berpindah ke rumah baru minggu depan

ha amacam busy kan? kan?

okay lah, tak nak tulis panjang2. masa saya terlalu berharga untuk dibazirkan sekarang. hahah. see you all next time! wish me the best okay :)

Tapi kalau ter update gak blog ni,hehhehhe,,,,paham2 jer la eyh..!!ahaksss..

I adore Nancy Ajram

Nansy Ajram in a very beautiful country girl photographes made her look so nice, sweet and naugthy. She is still my fav arabic singer as she always keep herself on top by her modern and fresh look. Looking amawing dear Nansy ;)