Yes u are my SOULMATE

Hi peeps..xx

Quick update again,two days ago i did a surprise to my baby,i've put lot's of afford to make it our second month anniversary as lovely as i can..19th june 2011,i pick that sacred date to be our Anniversary and i did it..I am tired but from deep of my heart i feel OMG when my baby wanna coming back home.??.mean while waiting for him,i'll get ready for the food that i cook,not much but i tried to make it as best as i can for him..my heart was pounding mean while i'm waiting for him to coming back home,and guess what,i send text to him,and i ask him to buy some ice cube for no reason just because of my heart beat go to fast not like before even though i can't wait for him to coming back..that's funny..!!And he just text me back and said 'Ok baby,i'll drop by to the Nisa Shop and get some ice cube,see u later'..xx..

And finally he come back and arrive home but my heart still pounding,i just let him go straight to the kitchen and after few minute i just let him in the kitchen and finally i've surrender that i need to go and get him as soon as i can..i saw him smile and he said,'Owh baby,it's so sweet of u'..!!u put lot's of afford to do all these thing and i appreciate that and I LOVE U LOT'S BABY'..!!and my mouth just get lock and i can't say even one single words..i am so happy when he's happy and i tried to make both of us happy..and i love it..the only thing i can do that time it's just cuddle him up till i immerse into him..and yes I LOVE U EVEN MORE BABY..xx

When he had a dinner and enjoy the food that i cook for him,he ask me wether i allowed him to read that special card i gave to him or not,and i said suit yourself if u want to read it because that's for u.!!.and he was smiling reading our anniversary card..After finish dinner i ask him to open his present that i bough for him,and i'm glad he love that pressie..He said thank u to me and deffo i said my pleasure and i love u baby..he fitting his clothes and seems he quite like it because he said i have a good taste and his quite impressive...well i'll upload a few piccies around preparation dinner,and dinner night,and also his pressie and also mine..thank u baby,i love u with all my heart..

Preparation for Anniversary dinner and his pressie

Here we go..dinner night..xx

My pressie from him

 i LOve it..!!!

From the moment our eyes met baby, our hearts knew what our minds couldn't comprehend. I have never felt such an unexplainable love that we share. I could never find enough words to express my love for u. even though i do lot's of afford to show u how much i love u..The feeling is so overwhelming that a moment without u when u not around is like a thousand years with the sun. I want to give to u the joy u have brought to my life. U ARE MY LIVING BREATH,MY LIFE,MY LOVE AND MY SOULMATE..I am the luckiest woman in the world to be with u. I have never been so happy in my life then I am when I'm with u. U mean the whole world to me and I can't wait for the day when the world knows the love I have for u. I want nothing more then to be a wonderful wife and perfect mother for our children soon..

There are no words to express how I feel about u. I constantly search for the words, and they all seem less than I truly feel. U are my life, my heart, and my soul. You are my best friend. U are my one true love.

I Just Love Him..xx

I still remember the day we first met. I knew that u were the one I was meant to be with forever. I thought of u every day, and dreamed of u each night since after i going back home about an a month.. Just when I thought u had forgotten me, u would call and make all my dreams seem real. The sound of your voice on the line, was the sweetest sound I would ever find. Then one day when finally the time that i was waiting to coming back here and met u,u gave me a kiss on my neck, and told me that u loved me a lot. My heart was beating hard within my chest. My hand was shaking and I could barely breathe. Then u came out to see me and I knew it was meant to be. Those were the sweetest days, of memories of the past. I had to be near u, lying on your chest. I need to show u, that u were the best. So I made the decision to tell you how I feel. When u said you felt the same, I felt it was a dream. I packed up my stuff and altered my life. I never looked back,even though lot's of things happen between me and Adde, now you will make me your wife. I am on a cloud,immerse.. living in a dream, and a few month from now, it will really feel real. I wrote into this blog for u to keep, and when you need a reminder of how I feel. I've said it before and I'll say it again, words cannot express how u make me feel. I make this promise to u BABY, to love u the way that u love me. I now look to the future and forget the past, your life is mine and we will make it last. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. With all my heart I am forever yours. ..

Although sometimes I question things, deep inside I know that u are the only one for me. When I'm not with u, u are the only one I'm thinking of. Everything about u tells me that we can be together forever. Only u can make me feel like time STOPS when I'm with you. Only u can make things better when it feels like the end. Only u can be the one to smooth my fears away. For this I'm grateful and I hope you never leave. I love you baby..xxx

♥

From the bottom of my heart, i.love.you! 

It is time to struggle again for the very last time while waiting for u everyday before u coming back home..

Time flies and it is coming to an end.
I wish time goes a lil' bit slower this time because I know I will definitely miss the moments.

I appreciate every single moment with you.
As long as I'm with you, anywhere is fine.
I just love the moment when I'm with you.
It's not being love that makes me happy.
Its being in love with you that makes me happy.

Pweeee..!!!

Hi ..

Just a quick update..two days ago when I was working, I get a short message from the love of my heart, i guess he is at work that time, and he told he had the accident when he was on his way to work ..MASYAALLAH, I fell like somebody pull my heart away from me when I get news that morning, and then i straight away give him call and guess what  he said to me..??' baby dont worry, I'm ok' .. but i feel frust When my Motorbike had a crash this morning. .. OMG, I am bloody  worried about him but he worried about his bike .. darling, thats just a metal .. we can substitute a new one if we wanted to change it,but  if anything happen to u or u get damage from that accident tell me where should i get the replacement..??gggrrr...baby .. baby .. but it doesn't matter now, because everything still under control, he's ok ,Alhamdulillah.. When I see him yesterday and while waiting for him coming back home from work,it's really make my heart beat so fast,don't know how the condition of him..but now Alhamdulillah everything ok..Love u lots baby..xx

sadness

“I am disappointed with you!”

My heart feels like being cut by a sharp knife after hearing the words above.

Therefore,

I asked myself some questions today:

"If something bad happened, shall I be sad?”

“What is the definition for sadness?”

“Shall I sad if I fail to achieve what I supposed to get?”

“Shall my emotions be affected by other’s opinions?”

I am sure most people will answer “YES” since we are human.

Human do have feelings.

Anyway,

The next four lines are the answers from my heart:

“If something bad happened, let it be, I still have to carry on my life!”

“I don’t know the definition but who cares, as long as I know life is short”

“I get what I deserved! (If you eat salty fish, you should bear the thirst)”

“Why should I care bout other’s opinions, this is my OWN LIFE!!”
At least,
I am satisfied with my life and there are lots more that keeps me happy! :)

When I fall for you..xx

Baby...

Never in a million years did I ever think that I could find the kind of happiness and love that I have found with you. You are a dream come true and I'm really glad that fate brought us together.  And I know that with every day we are together, the love just gets stronger and stronger. i just want u to know that I love you and thank you for all the love and happiness you've brought to me. you know how hard things have been for me this last few year and I know you have been through the same thing, but when I found you I knew I wasn't alone and I did not feel alone anymore. You were there for me when no one else was or when no one else understood. That means more to me than anything, I am so lucky that I fell in love with such an amazing person like you. I love u..

Baby..

You are my everything. Thank you for loving me the way no one can. You understand me and you know just how to make things right. You will never know just how much I love you, but I will spend the rest of my days trying to show you. You saved me from the worst, and you are always there for me. No matter what, there will never be another for me and I will always keep you safe. Baby you mean the world to me and I care about you so deeply that it hurts for the short time that we are not together each day. My every thought and breath, I draw from you and I truly do love you.yes as u know i do love you and you are my world. You are the most sweetest, most precious man in my life. All my life I prayed for someone like you and I thank God that I finally found you. Love, promise me that you will always be mine. I know in my heart our love will never die. You will always be a part of me and I am a part of you indefinitely.LOL,I don't find enough words to describe how I feel about you. You possess all the color and beauty of heavens, lush and satiny. Do you know how much I hunger for your gentle touch and the warmth embrace of your body..?I know sound a bot dirty but that the truth and i do want u baby..

I love you..you are my every heartbeat and my every breath. 

Baby..

When I met you, my life could not have been in a worse state. My heart had been broken too many times to count and life just didn't seem worth living anymore. Then you came along.From the first time I laid eyes on you, I knew that you would be someone that would make me smile again. You had such a warm, soft look on your face that I knew there was comfort and friendship in your heart. We started out as friends and you were the rock I needed in my life. I soon began to realize that what I was feeling for you was more than a friendship... something so overwhelming and wonderful that I couldn't even believe it myself. You opened my heart to new and wonderful things! You showed me what love really is and showed me that I was worth loving.you have given me hope, fulfilled dreams, and given me a reason to go on. You have helped me become a better person.. You have completed me in more ways than you could ever imagine! The love you have given to me is sometimes so hard to believe that I still have to pinch myself to make sure it's really in my life..!

I wonder what would have become of me if you were not right with me. Your love is the sunshine that shines every day of my life, you are the rain that showers in my soul ... love is a magic isnt it..? it works like a miracle. 

Baby..

As we know sometimes life can be cruel but when it all comes together there is no moment as sweet as what we had now..That is how I feel about you entering my life. You have rekindled the flame called love in me. You have given one more reason to look forward to tomorrow. Now, you are a significant part of my life and I look forward to the day when we can make it permanent. I love you so much. I love you for your kindness, for your caring and giving nature, for your beauty - both inner and outer, and most of all I love you because you are you. The fact that you show me who you really are and not what you think I may want. baby, let this letter be a testament to my true feelings for you. The whole world can see and know how I feel for you.

From the moment our eyes met, our hearts knew what our minds couldn't comprehend. I have never felt such an unexplainable love that we share. I could never find enough words to express my love for you. The feeling is so overwhelming that a moment without you is like a thousand years with the sun. I want to give to you the joy you have brought to my life. You are my living breath, my life, my love, my soulmate. I love you with all my heart.

Your Love

Jesse xx

Home Sweet Home

Hey Bloggers..meet u guy's again..just quickie update because i'm a bit exhausted as i had a long flight back home..HOME SWEET HOME JESSE.i cant believe after what i'm going trough with the surgery finally i'm back with peace even though i bring the sicknesses together with me..well that's life and that's the thing i need to face it every day even though i knew sometimes that sickness making me down and guess what,yesterday i had my first depression..i don't know what i'm thinking,but my head just floating on the sky and i feel lost..

Finally i have my bed again..i love my bed.i know it's sound silly but i don't bother what people gonna say to me,what i know i love my bed and my nunu..( pillow)

But today again i had my depression,i feel lost,i need someone to talk,but i have no one here..everybody busy with their life,working.

I think i need to go out get the fresh air..till continue again soon,see u guy's..xx

Since you found my blog,this is for u Baby..xxx

Since you found my blog,this is for u Baby..i want you to know you always in my mind,and i love you with all my heart..

Since you came into my life I have often wondered if you were sent to me from God. Do you remember the first time we met? I do...The way both of us expressed ourself caught us off guard. I could not do anything.. Most men are rude when they approach a woman. But not you, you were quite the gentleman.

I knew you would break my shell after our first date. Before you came along, I had been hiding in the shadows of live for too long. You prove my first impression right each day we are together. You were right when you said there are good people in the world. You are a great person - an influential individual and compassionate friend and lover..i do love you baby..

baby do you still remember that you have told me this would be my reality. You said you were going to be my sounding board and the person I can turn to and confide in. As the minutes, hours, days and now months continue  I feel closer to you. It has been years since I have felt this way towards someone. I want to tell my secrets to you because I know you will keep them safe just as you have kept me safe from this crazy world.

You make me laugh when I can not find anything to smile about. You make sure we share every minute together laughing and talking about our plans in life. Most men run if a woman starts talking about the future. Not you. You make sure we discuss our goals for our relationship as well as our independent plans for ourselves. Thank you for being you. You have exposed me the finer things in life that were right before my eyes.

I promise to love and cherish all the days we have together.

I promise to hold you when you need to be held.

And at any chance i can get.

I promise to keep my nagging to a minimum,

So that i don't turn into your "strict wife".

I promise to never take for granted what i have...

That means you, of course!

I promise to occasionally watch and seem interested

while you play your  video games.

And since we dont have totally the same tastes in music,

I promise to not play my "nonsense" when you're around.

(Well maybe not promise, but i'll try)

I promise to keep each of our "roles" equal.

We both play and equal part in our lives.

Baby, you are my life, my heart, and my soul.

my life would be nothing without you.

you complete me in so many ways.

and i am so glad that we are together.

i absolutely cant wait to spend the rest of my life with you.

you are all that i have ever wanted in a man.

and so much more!

thank you for everything you have ever done for me

and will ever do for me..!!

I love you! forever and always..!!