This is my story

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Emptiness

I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.

I have a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. Worse yet, this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for enough years yet that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.

This totally sucks.

I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
happen.

I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.

And hell, I think I've reached the point where I'm jealous of cult members. Those poor
deluded fuckers who shave their heads and dance around in public begging for
donations, or the heaven's gate suicide cult, at least they have a sense of purpose, of
belonging. They must have a sense of devotion for their beloved cult leaders.

Is there any way to have meaning in your life when you're disconnected from everyone?
I don't think so.

New Life Begin

 Hey what's up blogger's..been ages I'm not here,don't be upset,i just finish moving to new house,busy plenty time with those cleaning and doing some decoration,plus ahakss..!!!wifi not install here yet as they said have to postpone forth April,damn it SKY people..huh..!!!( Muka tgh marah.)

I still thinking doing some more decoration as painting and putting some of my favourite photos on the wall..don't know whether its just making messy or making more perfect view in here,but i fancy all those kind of decoration..

Not long since first day i move to cleaning my new house. Its all very exciting. Right now i just want to stay here of this house. Start my new life..i love my life now..

 This is my new kitchen area,i make it black for sofa and dining table,and mix with some decoration with red pillow and red plate cover on the table..and can u see that plant in that kitchen..??i think that's owesome..!!i like that colour,making me feel like I'm in my own house in K.L..i miss my house in there...

Look..!!!that my living hall area witch is i putting some decoration like red pillow,orchid,acoustic guitar..and OOOpppss..yes as u see i putting vegetable on that basket,i love my vegetable..

 Vegetable micture with full of colours..

 And look,more decoration with some of my magazine,small lighting and kangaroo from Perth Australia..

This is my favourite place,i don't mind if i have to stay in here all day long,my suite bathroom..as usual i putting some decoration in there such orchid,small towel to face wiping,theme blue and white...i love my bathroom..!!

What..??bedroom..?owhh no,my bedroom is to privacy to show here,or let me think if i change my mind,and pray for that if u want to see my lovely bedroom..ahakss,..!!!

Tsunami JEPUN Di sebalik ALQURAN

Salam blogger's.


( ni kali keberapa eyh saya bg salam kat dalam blog saya neh..??adehh..!!)
takper2..just nak share dgn korang apa yg kawan saya share dalam fb baru2 nie..

1. Tarikh yg berlaku adalah pada  11/3/2011 bersamaan 6 RabiulAkhir 1432 Hijah or 6/4/1432.

2. so dengan tahun 1432 di pecahkan 14 || 32.

3. Jawapanya Jujuz ke 14 Quran.

4. Dan bulan 4. 

Rahsia  angka tahun ini :  Jujuz 14 Ayat Quran ke 4. 

Rujuk di Quran. 

1. Jujuz 14 bermula pada surah Al-Hijr, dan ayat ke  4 dari surah AL Hijir menyatakan

"Dan kami tidak membinasakan suatu negeri, melainkan sudah ada ketentuan yang tetap baginya". 

2. Rahsia seterusnya yang menunjukan Malapetaka ini akan berlaku di Jepun ialah dengan kedudukan Jepun dan Wilayah Seedai pada kedudukan geografi bg ( Jepun : Latitiude 36, Longtitude 138)

so dlm 1432, 14 dh di ketahui Jujuz Al Quran. maka yang di pecahkan 14 || 32 so di pecahkan lagi 3|2 ,so now secret no adalah 3. 

di ambil pula lokasi latititude dan longitude. 

3+6+1+3+8 = 21

so next 2+1 = 3

proved *. yg di maksudkan dengan no 3 adalah negara jepun. 

Dan di dalam jepun jugak terdapat banyak wilayah.. maka wilayah yang akan di turunkan malapetaka itu ? Wilayah Seedai pada kedudukan geografi Latitiude 38'15 dan Longtitude 140'53

makan 3+8+1+5+1+4+0+5+3 = 30 

so next 3+0 = 3. 

*proved wilayah yang tuhan maksudkan dgn angka 3 adalah Wilayah Seedai di Jepun. 

3. Rahsia seterusnya dengan tarikh 6

msa yang di laporkan oleh Jabatan Metrologi Rusia.. gempa bumi berlaku pada masa 1446 waktu Jepun.. 

so 1+4+4+6 =15 

so next 1+5 = 6

*proved 6 membawa maksud masa yang akan berlaku. 

4. Dah yang seterusnya 1432 apabila di pecahkan 14||32, kini di ambil pula angka 14 dan di pecahkan 1||4 , maka angka satu boleh di kelaskan sebagai permulaan hari. maksudnya di dalam Islam Jumaat adalah hari pertama dalam minggu itu. so angka satu memberi maksud malapetaka itu akan berlaku pada hari Jumaat. 

5. Lihat.. betapa benarnya ayat al quran. segala yang  di nyatakan tetap berlaku. walaupun suduh berabad kitab Quran di turunkan. 

6. Walaupun zaman berubah sejauh mana sekalipun.. Al-Quran tetap bagi sepanjang zaman. 

7. Di percayai banyak lagi rahsia yang masih tidak dapat di ketahui di dalam tarikh ini. namun sekadar ini pun telah membuatkan kita lihat dengan mata kita sendiri betapa mulia Al-Quran. dan segala yang di ungkapkan di dalamnya

8. WauAllahhu Allam. 

Di persilakan untuk share. bg mengingati kite kembali tentang segala perkara yang terkandung di dalam Al-Quran adalah benar buat selamanya. mahupun di dunia atau pun akhirat. 

Feeling down… down… down…

PLEASE

GOD

HELP

ME!!

PLEASE!

I feel like I have been down in the gutters for the past few days and have not been able to figure out why. I had a great time waiting to move on with new apartment but i don't even knew why since then I have found it very hard to put a smile on my face… 

I hate feeling like this. I know it affects my family and everyone else around me and I hate that. I know that I need to push through these crappy feelings and come out the other end stronger… but I also know that it’s not easy. It’s not like waking up the next day and everything feeling all better with puppies and rainbows. I know I am the only one who can make things better and I have the tools I need to accomplish my final goal

So… I will think happy thoughts and try to come up with a game plan to make things better.

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Tsunami : Ujian Atau Bala

Salam ... 

Today we are shocked by the news of our second day tsunami in Japan .. many lives already lost .. And we heard a tsunami that struck Southeast Asia will also .. the news presenter for the people of Malaysia are also advised not to panic with the news .. Possible tsunami because it is blocked by the Philippines .. meaning, the Philippines will receive a fragment of the wave .. However, the people of Malaysia especially in Sabah waters are advised to not go down to the sea .. Feared it would cause waves to well ..

Footage has emerged of Friday's tsunami sweeping through Kesennuma City in Miyagi Prefecture, north-eastern Japan.

The force of the wave washed away houses and cars in one of the worst hit areas after a devastating 8.9-magnitude earthquake hit off Japan's north-east coast on Friday.

The earthquake which rocked Japan triggered tsunami alerts across the entire Pacific basin, including Russia, Mexico, Hawaii and the entire western US coast.

The area is so volatile, it is often referred to as the "ring of fire".

Measuring 8.9, the earthquake was 8,000 times more powerful than the one that devastated Christchurch in New Zealand in February.

A massive earthquake has hit the north-east of Japan triggering a tsunami that has caused extensive damage.

Japan's TV showed cars, ships and even buildings being swept away in the Fukushima prefecture, after the 8.9 magnitude earthquake.

Officials said a wave as high as 6m (20ft) could strike the coast.

The quake struck about 250 miles (400km) from Tokyo at a depth of 20 miles, shaking buildings in the capital for several minutes.

The tsunami, which hit Japan on Friday, has destroyed many towns including Ofunato, Iwate Prefecture, in the north-east of the country.

Pictures show a car perched on top of a house and buildings washed away or collapsed after the wall of water struck.

Troops are now on hand to assist in the search and rescue operations.

 

Damian Grammaticas reports on the destruction wrought by the tsunami in Sendai

hopefully may god bless us and people in japan..ALLAHUAKBAR..!!!ALLAHUAKBAR..!!!