The Horrendous Night Mare!!Grrr..

We argue for the first time,well basically not argue,probably the best words i can use in here it's i'm sulking because he yelling at me for the first time,or maybe he just a bit rudely not yelling like he said to me.He said might be his voice a bit lauder so that making me upset and sulking..

I'm going to the room,and thinking what should i do right now.I assume apparently i will pack my stuff and leaving him,but i can't do that to him.He love of my life,i can't leave him just because of his behaviour of remarkable.And maybe this is time for me and him get to know each other and learn to living together for the future.I just lay on my bed and keep thinking why he did that against me..And then bout half and hour ish he come to persuade me and ask the apologise..Well as people who know me already,i'm a bit stubborn.( Mean tak makan ngan pujuklah kononnya..)When he ask the apologise i just keep it my mouth shut and don't know what should i said to him..Yes the easier words that i can say is 'i forgive u baby' but my mouth like having a glue on my lips..!!!cannot say much when he ask the apologise.WTF huh..!!

I feel gutted,devastated and many feeling i felt right now,but when he start crying,my heart was melt and make me think he honest and he really want this relationship going well like i do.Yes of course i also want this relationship,i do not know and i can't imagine living without him in my life,he love of my life..He is my soul,and he are tattoo in my heart..And guess what,after a few minute he persuade me,Look now i can smile again..;-)

How easy i am fall into him...huh..!!!God is Greater,He close my heart to any man come and out from my life and giving me a notes for not to get married but He also open my heart to someone i love..

And eventually we get back together as usual,apologise accepted and he promise it wont happen again.I told him i never have any experience like this before,and thats making me felt a bit phobia when i'm in a  certain circumstances situation.And he still keep asking me apologise that he make me upset..And now he make me happy again..;-)

Well close story about upset,sulking,apologise,gutted or whatsoever,now i wanna talk about my new biz.I have new job for my biz which is i'll be the official beauty trainee for Manchester Student who want get that course..It's great because at the same time i still can doing my usual routine,helping my future husband for his new business...I love and miss my busy routine by the way because lately the biz not really good,don't know why but i guess it's economic matter..Arghh..!!i i told him,money can't giving us happiness because i feel that already..sometimes life with money it's crap..!! ( who agree with me..??put the hand on the air..!!) well thats the only thing make me calm.But i still can calm as long as his around..;-)

Ok peeps,got to go,need to get a shower because my face getting damn oily already..very uncomfortable but at the same time my stomach was grumbling its was famished i assume..!!Arghh..