Lies

Never lie to me, because if i catch you, i will call you on it and i will feel on my anger like two teenagers groping  each other in the backseat of a car.
I abhor being lied to
I would rather you hit me than lie to me.
I have been lied to alot in my life, and i have grown to lot the  it with a passion as a result.
I do not hate many things, but being lied to is one of them, and is  at the top of the list among  personal things (i hate things like abuse of children and women, war and poverty more, but, that is the world issues list. not the personal)
 
      “The naked truth is always better than the best dressed lie”
 Ann Landers
 
I prefer ugly truth over pretty lies, because, eventually the lie is found out, or, in my case,  i sense it in you.
my radar is  excellent. and if i sense it, i tell you "you are lying"
which can bring one of two results.
more lies, or a shameful  or   kinda of laughing admission.
If it is the latter, i am far more apart to forgive on the spot, and tell you not t do it again, explaining i prefer the truth, even if it is brutal.
The truth hurts alot less than the betrayal
 
“A single lie destroys a whole reputation for integrity”
 Baltasar Gracian
 
If you lie, i will always suspect you of lying the rest of our relationship.
I hate that i am that way, but, once you have broken my trust, i know you are capabel of doing it again.
So, i withdraw emotionally.
i put up a wall between us as self preservation.
one lie can cost us the  best in our relationship.
Dont get me wrong i DO forgive. I can be very forgiving, which i did not realize until i was able to forgive my ex for so much. Something i believe suprised him
I did not realize that  i had such a capacity to forgive someone i loved.
 
The liar's punishment is not in the least that he is not believed, but that he cannot believe anyone else.”
 George Bernard Shaw
 
I am known for my veracity by those who know me well.
I can be brutally honest.
My aunt hates it.
because i will tell the truth if its hurtful, and she believes you should lie to  be kind.
All dishonesty, for me, feels dirty, feels wrong and makes me feel so , just  miserable 
 
 “No one can lie, no one can hide anything, when he looks directly into someone's eyes.”
 Paulo Coelho
 
This is so true, except  sometime si have trouble with eye contact in general, i do however, tend to look someone in the eyes if i am speaking truth about something, other than just chithat.
I have gotten alot better wit the eye thing, i look ppl in the eyes alot now.
the thing is,   what makes it hard is there is an emotinal intensity to eye contact.

in the jim butcher dresden files books there is a thing caled a soul gaze, where you can see everything that is inside a person, good or bad.
but tio soulgaze with someone means they can see all that is within you too
which, in the book, is dangerous
Its almost like that.
I look someone in the eyes i sense alot about them, but, at the same time, i am afraid they can sense alot in me, and until i trust a person,  really know them, i dont want them to see me so naked.
I know i  sense  ppl motives and   general state of being because of the spiritul gift of decernment.
It can be a burden to bare this gift, because, sadly, there is far more  bad than good in ppl, dishonesty, betrayal, self motivation, vapidness, lostness. living lies. malice, anger. sometimes evil.
I wish i saw more good, because, seeing so much  mad in ppl, in the world makes me    jaded. makes me suspicious, and makes me closed off emotionally until you can prove you are worthy of it.
To bare that gift tho, you have got to be strong and tough, you have to be able to  bare the weight of it.
BTW, in a nonreligious world view, the gift of descernment would be known as being an empath. They are  pretty much identical,.  Which leads me to believe God bestows spiritual gifts to all, but, its outr choice how we use them. For God or not.
I  feel like, all the painful things i have experienced, were allowed to make me able to bare that gift.
It is the rareist spiritual gift, and i find those who do not have it to some degree, look at you like you have three eyeballs. Or you are crazy.
but is is scriptural, unless you have experienced it, you dont understand it.
most ppl could not bare the emotion of it i dont believe
but the flipside, the positive is this,  you can empathize really well, you feel the emotion of a hurting person and you are able to  comfort and minister to them.
And then there is when you can see good in someone,  light and love and kindness.
Its beautiful.
You can see the love of God living in some ppl,  and it makes you love them instantly
 
The end of an ox is beef, and the end of a lie is grief”
 African Proverb
  “Oh, what lies there are in kisses.” -Heinrich Heine
 
So true!  lies hurt others and hurt you to tell!
So why do it?
pride. fear of hurting ppl? they get hurt anyway and pride, well pride is just denying you are human, flawed and messed up like the rest of us.
which is just  done out of ignorance... it is pointless
 
      “Sex is full of lies. The body tries to tell the truth. But, it's usually too battered with rules to be heard, and bound with pretenses so it can hardly move. We cripple ourselves with lies.”
 Jim Morrison 
 
I included this quote because i like it,.
Aside from pride and money, sex is why ppl lie often
to get it, to cover your past history, used to get somehting you want, used to sustain something in your life....
How sad such a wonderful thing God gave us as this incredible gift and  beautiful pleasure phsyically is used for so much bad.
Sex is  just, gah, even when its bad its still kinda good. lol
and God made us able to experince that pleasure when he made adam and eve.
It WS intended to motivate, it bonds and it produced children.
be fruitful and multiply, i mean, he had to give us a reason to  make with the babies lol
 
We do cripple ourselves with lies.
one lie tends to begat a lie, begats a lie, begats a lie... and so on.
And it is so very hard to keep track of the lies you tell,
you eventually slip and then the people you lie to realize  you  have been lying al along, betraying their trust, and that relationship will never, ever be the same.
the damage  is done,.
if you are like me,
you can forgive, but they can not forget
there is a scar  left inside me that never  quite heals, and you made it  because you just could not be honest.
 
Lastly i leave you with a spoken word from James Marsters
Cheap Wine LiesA Lie Is Like A Cheap Bottle Of Wine From A Cheap Liquor Store
It Dont Cost Much At The Time
But It Burns As It Goes Down
And You Know Your Gonna Pay,
Later You Say,
Now Its OK
But As Hard As You Swallow
You Cant Shake The Taste
The Acid And The After Thaught,
Churning In Your Belly
The Buzz Becomes A Fly In Your Brain
And You Feel Grey The Next Day
And It Leaves You With Nothing But Regrets
Download it yourself to hear

 
I cannot tell you how much i love that.
it is such a beautiful, gritty  metaphor for a  lie.
That James.  he knows what he is talking about  most of the time.
thats why i adore his mind and heart.
Its alot like mine.
For that knowledge, i feel blessed.
 

You think youre going to live your life alone
In darkness and seclusion... yeah, I know
Youve been out there and tried to mix with those animals
And it just left you full of humiliated confusion
So you stagger back home and wait for nothing
But the solitary refinement of your room spits you back onto the streets
And now youre desperate and in need of human contact
And then you meet me and yur whole world changes
Because everything I say is everything youve ever wanted to hear
So you drop all you defenses, Im perfect in every way
cause I make you feel so strong and so powerfull inside
You feel so lucky
But your ego obscures reality that you never bothered to
Wonder why things are going so well
You want to know why?

cause Im a liar, yeah, Im a liar
Ill tear (rip) your mind up, Ill burn your soul
Ill turn you into me, Ill turn you into me
cause Im a liar, a liar, a liar, a liar...

Ill hide behind a smile and understanding eyes
And Ill tell you things that you already know so you can say:
I really identify with you, so much
And all the time that youre needing me is just the time
That Im bleeding you, dont you get it yet?
Ill come to you like an affliction then Ill leave you like an addiction
Youll never forget me... wou wanna know why?

I dont know why I feel the need to lie and cause you so much pain
Maybe its something inside, maybe its something I cant explain
cause all I do is mess you up and lie to you
Im a liar, ooh, Im a liar
But if youll give me another chance I swear Ill never lie to you again
cause now I see the destructive power of a lie,
Theyre stronger than truth
I cat believe I ever hurt you, I swear I will never lie to you again
Please, just give me more chance, Ill never lie to you again, no,
I swear, I will never tell a lie, I will neer tell a lie, no, no
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha! sucker! sucker! sucker!

 

I hate this..!!!lot's of lies..!!