Oooohhh Migraine..!!

isnin saya sakit kepala. selasa saya migraine, abang kepada sakit kepala... rabu saya xsedap badan... khamis saya demam... jumaat saya ting tong... sabtu,ahad back to normal,isnin sakit kepala balik..!!ggrrr..MENCI..!!!!

aarggghhh menci menci... x suka... sbb x boleh nak kacau org, x boleh nak jalan sane sini... duduk kat meja tutup dgn shawl tampal koyok satu kepala sampai saya sendiri rasa "muka aku pecah ke?" hehe.. ...

tetapi saya di dalam kesakitan yg tidak dapat di terjemahkan di dalam bahasa melayu ataupun inggeris mahupun bahasa mandarin tahap 3 yg saya pelajari suatu ketika dahulu di kolej bersama2 teman2. 

hari ini hari isnin, satu hari saya sakit kepala plus tintong and dah naik fed up dah nk makan ubat sebab kalau makan pun masih tingtong... sampaila kul 8pm tadi baru saya kembali kepada normal, maknanya saya sudah mula bercakap dgn sesiapa saja selepas ini..YAHOOOO..!!!! 

House Hunting..

I waited impatiently to move into a new apartment, I had just gone to see two houses, but I'm pleased that the first one I saw earlier .. so is adde, she likes that because the tram station is near with my future house,very convinience  ..I hope I can sorted out about it soon..

Ini yang ku rasa ini ku alami

Ini yang saya rasa..ini yang saya alami... 

resah dan kelam rasa semacam.... 

hati yang tercalar...usah dibalut..kerna..parut akan tetap kelihatan... 

ragam dan kisah bagaikan memamah usia saya..yang makin meningkat.. 

mendekatkan saya yang pasti untuk ke 'sana'...pengakhirannya... 

Ini yang saya rasa..ini yang saya alami... 

kenangan demia kenangan akan tetap silih berganti.. 

mengambil tempatnya...menayangkan di ruang kotak fikiran... 

kadang-kadang memilukan..kadang-kadang memberikan kemanisan.. 

namun, 

itu bukan pengukuran buat saya... 

kerna kenangan pastinya memberikan seribu erti dan makna... 

terutamanya buat saya... 

bila kenangan yang ditinggalkan..tercipta suatu sejarah..untuk hidup.. 

yang hitam ataupun putih... 

kita yang memegang pena untuk mencorakannya... 

ke utara...selatan..timur...dan barat... 

itu panduan arah...berlandaskan Al-Quran Al-sunnah... 

menjadi pedoman....hingga ke akhir hayat...selagi nafas dikandung badan... 

Ini yang saya rasa..ini yang saya alami... 

pedihnya hati...tiada yang mengetahui..yang pasti hanyalah Ilahi... 

mencari-cari jawapan diri berliku-berliku jalannya...pasti saya hadapi.. 

meninggalkan yang telah pergi...amat2lah bererti... 

tapi dengan berat hati untuk melepaskan pergi... 

panjatkan doa moga diberikan kejahteraan oleh Ilahi itu sudah pasti... 

kerna, dengan apa-apa yang terjadi pasti ada hikmah yang tersembunyi... 

Ini yang saya rasa..ini yang saya alami... 

ada saat terhenti langkah saya ini... 

mati akal sempurna saya ini.... 

jatuh tersungkur pasti saya temui.... 

kebangkitan itulah yang menjadi pengganti.. 

dalam perlumbaan hidup ini... 

Ini yang saya rasa...ini yang saya alami... 

persinggahan pada diri ini...bilakah akan berakhir... 

ruang kemaafan menjadi sandaran kelembutan.. 

menghilangkan secebis kemarahan....walau... 

ianya tetap melekat di sanubari.... 

Ini yang saya rasa...ini yang saya alami... 

yang pastinya...tiadan pun mengetahui... 

cuma hanyalah Dia.. 

untuk petah saya berbicara.... 

What a day

hey, sup bloggers?

i'm not in the mood to blog right now. Don't get me wrong, i'm okay but yeah just that i'm in my lazy mood 

nothing happened today, but i dont know why but i keep thinking about this thing. hm oh no, please god, no ;s

That's pretty much it, i know, what a boring day eh?
so, i'm going to do my cooking now, see you laterr

I just hate it..

The last few days  I have been in a really cranky mood and I feel sorry for everyone around me. I honestly do. This includes my friends, , family members, everyone. I don't think anyone is safe from my wrath when I'm in this mood.

I don't really have an excuse, I've just been bitchy, for lack of a better word. I've been a complete bitch in every sense of the word. I hate getting out of bed in the morning, I hate getting a shower, I hate getting dressed, I hate going to work, I hate working. I hate go to class, I hate eating, I hate having to figure out what's for dinner, doing the dishes, etc. I know everyone hates doing certain things but at this moment I hate my life. I hate my weight, I hate myself for letting myself get to this point. I don't want to do anything about it. I hate that I don't keep in touch with friends that I love and I don't want to do anything about it at this point. I hate that I don't call family members who don't always have the time or means to call me. It would take 20 minutes on my Saturday to call them.




I hate that I don't have any children in this age now. I hate that I don't want to spend the time to go to the doctor to take care of myself, even though I am getting old and now is really the time to do that. I hate myself for not taking my medicine like I'm supposed to and I hate that I don't care enough to do it.




I hate my apartment now. I hate cleaning it. I don't want to clean it. . I hate everything in them. I hate that I don't have the money to do certain things I want because i have to saving and lots of thing need to do and I hate that I don't have the drive or ambition to do much more about it.




I hate work and everyone there. I hate that no one knows how to do shit and that I am the go-to person for every fucking thing. I hate that I am not strong enough to say 'enough.' I hate that I do not have the willpower to drive past a fast food restaurant, no matter how much good food is at home. I hate that I'll let it go to waste just because I'd rather have french fries & soda. I don't care.




That's my attitude right now and I really don't know what to do about it. Today is better. I told my mom I was sorry for being so snappy this few days and she told me that she thought that I was mad at her. How could I be mad at her? She has done so much for me in the past --scratch that--in my entire life. I hate that I went all weekend acting like a cranky bitch and had my mom thinking that. I'm glad I cleared it up but I still feel like shit about it.

What is wrong with me today..???

I’m too disgusted with myself to even look at the mirror and I wish this inferior feeling would just go away. 

I don't know what's wrong with me today, been feeling moody, sleepy and tired the whole day. I just really feel like hiding somewhere til' everything's okay.

i hate that feeling. the kind of feeling where i feel like doing anything is pointless. where i feel like i'm going no where (tell me if i’m in the right direction here).
well all i know is that feeling passes with a little time. i just wait it out and stay strong, theres always a better day a head..!!!!

A...B....C...

A...B....C...

A void negative people, places, things and habits. 

B elieve in yourself.

C onsider things from every angle.

D on't give up and don't give in.

E njoy life today, Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow 

may never come!

F amily and friends are hidden treasures. Seek 

them and enjoy their riches.

G ive more than you planned.

H ang on to your dreams.

I gnore those who try to discourage you! 

J ust do it!

K eep trying no matter how hard it seems. It will 

get easier!

L ove yourself first and most.

M ake dreams happen.

N ever lie, cheat or steal. Always strike a fair deal. 

O pen your eyes and see things as they really are. 

P ractice makes perfect.

Q uitters never win and winners never quit!

R ead and learn about everything important to you. 

S top procrastinating!

T ake control of your own destiny. 

U nderstand yourself in order to better understand 

others. 

V isualize your dreams.

W ant your dream more than anything.

X -ccelerate your efforts.

Y ou are a unique individual. Nothing can replace 

YOU! 

Z ero in on your goals and GO FOR THEM!