What a day

hey, sup bloggers?

i'm not in the mood to blog right now. Don't get me wrong, i'm okay but yeah just that i'm in my lazy mood 

nothing happened today, but i dont know why but i keep thinking about this thing. hm oh no, please god, no ;s

That's pretty much it, i know, what a boring day eh?
so, i'm going to do my cooking now, see you laterr

I just hate it..

The last few days  I have been in a really cranky mood and I feel sorry for everyone around me. I honestly do. This includes my friends, , family members, everyone. I don't think anyone is safe from my wrath when I'm in this mood.

I don't really have an excuse, I've just been bitchy, for lack of a better word. I've been a complete bitch in every sense of the word. I hate getting out of bed in the morning, I hate getting a shower, I hate getting dressed, I hate going to work, I hate working. I hate go to class, I hate eating, I hate having to figure out what's for dinner, doing the dishes, etc. I know everyone hates doing certain things but at this moment I hate my life. I hate my weight, I hate myself for letting myself get to this point. I don't want to do anything about it. I hate that I don't keep in touch with friends that I love and I don't want to do anything about it at this point. I hate that I don't call family members who don't always have the time or means to call me. It would take 20 minutes on my Saturday to call them.




I hate that I don't have any children in this age now. I hate that I don't want to spend the time to go to the doctor to take care of myself, even though I am getting old and now is really the time to do that. I hate myself for not taking my medicine like I'm supposed to and I hate that I don't care enough to do it.




I hate my apartment now. I hate cleaning it. I don't want to clean it. . I hate everything in them. I hate that I don't have the money to do certain things I want because i have to saving and lots of thing need to do and I hate that I don't have the drive or ambition to do much more about it.




I hate work and everyone there. I hate that no one knows how to do shit and that I am the go-to person for every fucking thing. I hate that I am not strong enough to say 'enough.' I hate that I do not have the willpower to drive past a fast food restaurant, no matter how much good food is at home. I hate that I'll let it go to waste just because I'd rather have french fries & soda. I don't care.




That's my attitude right now and I really don't know what to do about it. Today is better. I told my mom I was sorry for being so snappy this few days and she told me that she thought that I was mad at her. How could I be mad at her? She has done so much for me in the past --scratch that--in my entire life. I hate that I went all weekend acting like a cranky bitch and had my mom thinking that. I'm glad I cleared it up but I still feel like shit about it.

What is wrong with me today..???

I’m too disgusted with myself to even look at the mirror and I wish this inferior feeling would just go away. 

I don't know what's wrong with me today, been feeling moody, sleepy and tired the whole day. I just really feel like hiding somewhere til' everything's okay.

i hate that feeling. the kind of feeling where i feel like doing anything is pointless. where i feel like i'm going no where (tell me if i’m in the right direction here).
well all i know is that feeling passes with a little time. i just wait it out and stay strong, theres always a better day a head..!!!!

A...B....C...

A...B....C...

A void negative people, places, things and habits. 

B elieve in yourself.

C onsider things from every angle.

D on't give up and don't give in.

E njoy life today, Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow 

may never come!

F amily and friends are hidden treasures. Seek 

them and enjoy their riches.

G ive more than you planned.

H ang on to your dreams.

I gnore those who try to discourage you! 

J ust do it!

K eep trying no matter how hard it seems. It will 

get easier!

L ove yourself first and most.

M ake dreams happen.

N ever lie, cheat or steal. Always strike a fair deal. 

O pen your eyes and see things as they really are. 

P ractice makes perfect.

Q uitters never win and winners never quit!

R ead and learn about everything important to you. 

S top procrastinating!

T ake control of your own destiny. 

U nderstand yourself in order to better understand 

others. 

V isualize your dreams.

W ant your dream more than anything.

X -ccelerate your efforts.

Y ou are a unique individual. Nothing can replace 

YOU! 

Z ero in on your goals and GO FOR THEM!

-hOw gIRls lOOk aT boYS-

-hOw gIRls lOOk aT boYS-

Kalau lelaki handsome pendiam, 

Perempuan akan cakap: woow, cool giler... 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome pendiam, 

Perempuan akan cakap: ekelleh perasan bagus...

kalau lelaki handsome berbuat jahat ,

Perempuan akan kata: nobody's perfect 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome berbuat jahat, perempuan akan cakap: memang.... muka pun macam pecah rumah!

kalau lelaki handsome menolong perempuan yg 

diganggu,

perempuan akan cakap: wah.. machonya.. macam hero filem! 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome menolong perempuan yang diganggu, 

Perempuan akan kata: entah2 kawan dia...

kalau lelaki handsome dapat perempuan cantik, 

perempuan akan kata: sepadan sangat... 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome dapat perempuan cantik, 

perempuan akan kata: mesti kena bomoh perempuan tuh!

kalau lelaki handsome ditinggal kekasih, 

perempuan akan kata: jangan sedih, kan saya 

ada.. 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome ditinggal kekasih, 

perempuan akan kata:...(terdiam, tapi telunjuknya meliuk-liuk dari atas ke bawah, patutlah, tengok saja luarannya)...

kalau lelaki handsome penyayang binatang, 

perempuan akan cakap: perasaannya halus...penuh kasih sayang 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome penyayang binatang, perempuan akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus menyayangi...

kalau lelaki handsome bawa BMW,

perempuan 

akan cakap: matching... hebat luar dalam 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome bawaBMW,

perempuan akan cakap: bang, bosnya mana?.

kalau lelaki handsome tak mau bergambar, 

perempuan akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2 

gambarnya tersebar 

TAPI....

kalau lelaki tak handsome tak mau bergambar, perempuan akan kata: tak sanggup melihat hasilnya ya?

kalau lelaki handsome selalu ajak jumpa, 

perempuan akan cakap: ok...klu boleh ari ari nak jumpa..... 

TAPI.... 

kalau lelaki tak handsome selalu ajak jumpa, perempuan akan kata: tak apa laa, i bz atau 

bf i tak kasi kuar atau i dah berpunya.... 

HAHAHHAHA....lumrah dunia...aper nak wat..

macamtue gak perangai ORG LELAKI pd ORG PEREMPUAN YG TAK LAWA kn????

JGN MARE......

What a lazy weekend..

What a fantastical lazy weekend i had at my house this weekend! I woke up on Saturday bout 1pm,and still lying on my lovely bed..,Adde ready for our lunch on our bed,such a good weekend isn't it??

It’s a cozy, lazy, snuggly time of year. Time to cook your favorite chili’s and stews and all that fabulous comfort food that sits in your belly and just sings to your soul..What’s your favorite thing to do on a lazy day?Chill out babe..!!Yihahhhh..!!!

Public holidays are great for doing things but, with the inevitable queues involved when going away or talking part in any sort of activity whilst the rest of the country is also off work, many people opt for an extra day of lazing around.

The problem when you spend two days doing virtually nothing is that, although it gives your mind and body a break from the hustle and bustle of everyday life, getting going again afterwards can be extremely difficult. Once your mind gets into that inactive state, it takes often more than an alarm clock and caffeine to wake it up again.

Going to west is west launching

Watch Ila Arun, Om Puri at West Is West Press Conference and Red Carpet in ODEON PRINTWORK 27 WITHY GROVE MANCHESTER CITY CENTRE

It was a starry red carpet outside the Odeon of printwork Manchester, Ila Arun,Om Puri and lots of stars from england as well but i forget the name because so many actor and actress in there..Their launch the movie of WEST IS WEST,the story about Pakistan & English culture and the film was so brilliant and so touching..i gave them a 5 stars for that film,their probably release that film around this 25 of February..i cant wait to watch again..i love Sajeed,his the one son of the english woman and pakistani people..i can't story here no more,because its no point for me to story here,should be surprise..but honestly its very touching film..


Im going with Anorak,witch is his a really best friend of mine..me and Anorak had 2 VVIP ticket for red carpet and launching west is west..and after finish the launching i really feel bloody starving and i wanted to eat some JAPANESE FOOD infront of the ODEON is wasabi,so i was decide just go having my dinner in there instead have to walk around and find some shop in town..its a bit cool to walk in this moment actually..hahahhah...so we having a lot's of conversation and chatting,by the way it's really fun because this is first time for Anorak with japanese food..and guess what..???i have to teach him how to use chop stik instead spoon or fork..hahhahha,it's bloody funny..!!but damn fun..!!


Thanks to Anorak for a great evening and chatting..love u lots man..!!hahhahha..xxxx